I think today some of the reality set it. My husband, a man on a mission with the basement project, worked basically non-stop. The kids chose to spend their spring break day on digital devices. I did a few chores, cleaned up some things, and worked on an on-line course, but basically felt pretty unproductive. I think maybe it’s ok. Maybe it’s ok to not always be doing something. I don’t want to slip into depression or not make the most of this gift of time, but I also think that it’s ok to spend some of this time just slowing down and being ok with a slower pace. Sometimes the best thing you can do is just take a moment and snuggle with someone you love. Hug them a little tighter and appreciate the moment. Maybe even take a nap. After all when is the last time anyone had a Sunday with nothing to do.
Sometimes keeping up this journal every day is tough, but it’s also something I know I will look back on and feel a sense of accomplishment. It will be a document of this moment in history and in my life. I’m starting to think a little bit more about that. When I look back on this, what do I hope it accomplished in my life. What things do I want to have changed? What things do I hope will stick with me as a result? Something I hope to mull around a bit over the next couple of days and hopefully set some goals around. While a good nap day is probably needed right now, I know it’s not how I want to live indefinitely. I want to find my spark and energy and use it to make a real contribution. I want to plant seeds that when all this is over will be able to bloom and grow.