Check engine

The check engine light went on in my car and I ignored it. The next day I got a call from Lincoln letting me know it was on and then they asked if they could help me schedule service. I had planned to ignore it, but this made it easy. Under warranty, my car was repaired and the light turned off. A similar scenario has been happening with my body. It raised the alarm and I had no choice but to schedule a repair. A perfect storm of events triggered a UTI. Most things won't get me to a doctor but between the pain, constant urination and the fear from knowing how it triggered dementia in my mother-in-law, let's just say it got my attention. After lots of supplements, self care and lots of urology tests, I landed in a physical therapist care for pelvic floor treatment. As I'm working on reconnecting with my body I'm realizing that although I've been on autopilot lately, my body is not automatically functioning as it should. My stress snd holding patterns have literally blocked me from breathing and even standing normally. I've also realized that the move and life has created so much decision fatigue that I literally lost interest in anything. I avoided eating because I didn't know what I wanted to eat and quite frankly what to even buy. Then the other day I did some energy work with Laura Haver. After realizing some of the things I was holding on to,I decided I needed some hacks to move forward. I asked ChatGPT for some help with a menu and a shopping list. Just like my car notification call, simply offloading this chore made it accessible. Today I made sure I took time to make meals and then actually sit down and savor them. I realized as I sat down that not only have I not been connecting with my breath and my body, I haven't been tasting my food. It took a check engine light for me to realize I needed a reset. I know it's going to take time to heal and the healing needs to take place across many areas, but I see myself well and each step I take is moving me closer to being myself again. It's time to put some automatics in place to help me stop running on autopilot and start running with intention and purpose.